Monday, July 26, 2004

Literally day of Hell

Hi everyone. I would love to say that this post will be more fun and happy but seriously, I have had a horrible day already. I had a very big trauma happen on Saturday that has spilled over into the weekend and today. I have been fighting this problem and will still be through tomorrow. Do you ever just wonder "when will it end?" I am wondering that on a moment to moment basis right now. I am seriously overwhelmed.

A week or so ago I had a very hard time physically and since then I have really been trying to take care of myself in the physical health aspect. These last couple of days it has become apparent why I needed to do that. I mean, had I let my health go, this could have killed me. There have been moments in the last couple days where I have thought my head might fall off from stress. I don't know if there is an actual ailment where your head falls off from stress but I am pretty sure if it can happen, it will to me. I really am not a pessimistic person but this life...could make me one!

I wish I could go into what's been happening in my life but I would rather not publish it on the internet. If you are that curious, give me a call and we'll talk. There are just some serious crisis matters plaguing my life right now. I would love to just let it go but there are things humanly that have to be done. I am trying very hard to surrender all of my fears, worries, heartache, and stress to God and that's all I can do right now.

I am still healthy and taken care of so God is still on the throne. No matter what happens I just want to make sure and give him my praise and adoration as He truly deserves it. I hope this post lets you all know that things will be ok but I am in deep need of your prayers for stress release and provision. Thanks all and ~Shalom~

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