Thursday, March 31, 2005

Daphne....

Now here is a sad story and kinda morbid too. I decided to write today about being pruned and changed into something workable. This made me think of the Greek Myth of Daphne and Apollo. Now, I have to admit that this came to me while I was ordering Hummus and Pita Bread at Daphne's Greek Cafe but that doesn't matter...I know the story either way..right? Gosh, I have to get back into school. Daphne and Apollo have a weird story. Apollo was in love with Daphne but basically Daphne wasn't feeling it. She started to run from him but he was gaining ground quickly. At this point, she called out to her father to help her and he made her into a tree. Her skin started turning into Bark and she grew branches and then Apollo (out of his love) broke some braches or something off and made a laurel wreath out of it to wear in his heartbreak I suppose. Ok, so I don't really know the story that well.

Anyway, it made me think about how I am feeling right now. I am feeling pruned and I am feeling like I am running and running from things and at that point I cry out to God (my father) and he slowly makes me into something else. My skin changes and my appearance changes and things just well..change overall. I am happy to report that this is what I want but man just like when Apollo cut those branches off....it hurts!

Today, I got a second job finally. I am going to be an assistant at a Health Insurance Agency starting on Monday. It isn't a psych position but it sure pays my bills and gets some other goals met. The office is full of women so those of you who really know me...are realizing why this is important. I am excited about it and feel extremely blessed to be offered this position. It made my day so happy. I also heard from an old friend today that was hard to take for a second but made me take a step to get some closure! I also got a morning call from my favorite person on Earth so that makes life all the better. Thank you all so much for your prayers regarding a second job.

Anyway, back to the story. I believe that God is currently changing me in so many ways that it is painful. I know that he is pruning branches that have grown to long and scraggely. (not sure that is a word but oh well) He is finally making me into the person that he wants me to be in every possible way. I can see little by little the person I want to see in the mirror. I am truly more than blessed! This is a very painful experience at times but there are days like today when all of my pain and hard work...pay off. I have gone through some (my mom's word) DOOZIES in my life. Doozies=big problems

Either way, I am truly seeing the fruits of my labor for once. I am not sure what is going to happen in the more pressing areas but at least some areas are coming together for good! I appreciate God's direct movement in my life no matter how hard it is to have my branches cut. Poor Daphne with being made a tree and being cut on...but she has some amazing Hummus! :)

Here are my learning and thankfulness for yesterday:

Learning March 30, 2005:

1. A lower body workout yesterday made me understand just how strong my legs are!

2. Challenging myself is a great feeling

3. Stepping out in fear is a new thing I am getting good at.

4. Saying no and developing boundaries is more and more essential and beneficial to me daily

5. I will only give what I also receive in people. I am learning reciprocal relationships.

Thankfulness March 30, 2005:

I am thankful that I took a problem to 4 of my most trusted ladies yesterday and God moved through them. I am thankful that they were able to share their hearts and feelings with me and give me sound, wise advice that coincided with each other. I am so happy that I have these beautiful women and that I am starting to trust women! YEAH ..thank you God!

~Mosoltov~

1 comment:

Dale's Gmail said...

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