Retreat fostering seeking first the Kingdom

This weekend I went to a women's retreat with my church. I went last year as well and really loved it so I decided it was imperative to attend again this year. I have been thirty now for about 2 months and 9 days so I have been really focused on making Christ the center of my life. I am decent most days at spending time with Him in the morning and reading my bible on a semi-ordinary basis. I was beginning to lose steam when the retreat came up. This weekend was a good booster shot for my time with the Lord.

The first night of retreat I went out with a friend to the beach and just looked at the things he has created and prayed about some things that have been difficult recently. I then went to dinner with the same friend at a fantastic restaurant and just was really mindful of all the things HE has blessed me with. After dinner, we went back to the hotel and just relaxed.

The second day we had a morning session where the speaker spoke about how majestic God is and it was a fantastic reminder of just a portion of his character. I was really moved in my relationship with him and spend the rest of the day in a workshop about forgiveness. That was a big difference since I was working on forgiving myself and moving toward forgiveness of others a well. I found quickly that I was finding a place where God was tugging at my heart. It was certainly a good day.

On Sunday I went to a service in the morning and the worship was fantastic and I was able to pray with some ladies from my church and they really helped me gain perspective on how incredible God has planned my life and been there for me and will continue to be in my endeavors to be a good wife and a good mother. I came home and decided that things are going to continue to be different in my 30th year and I will continue to press in and abide in him to make sure my life reflects his majesty.

Dear Jesus,

Change my heart each and every day by teaching me about your character and how to press in to you more and embrace all that you have for me. I don't want control over my life anymore. You are my inspiration to be better Lord. I love you and praise you. Amen.