Saturday, January 28, 2006

A beautiful Saturday stroll.

Today has been a glorious day so far although my plan was to be knee deep in GRE preparation. I have not prepared for the GRE in the least but I have enjoyed my Saturday either way so far. Early this morning I got up and fixed breakfast for Christopher, who isn't usually here on Saturdays. I had plenty of time so I made scrambled eggs, toast, and sausage. He stayed here last night because he had an 80's dance. It was a lot of fun for him. So anyway, I drove him to Corona this morning and started my day when I got back with a 2 mile walk around my neighborhood. It was so refreshing and while I treked my way around Eastbluff....I talked to my boyfriend...yes you heard right...boyfriend.

I have decided that it's time to reveal the news completely. I now have a boyfriend and have since Thursday. His name is Avery and he is wonderful. I am really enjoying getting to know him and experience him in a relationship and am truly happy where I am. He is a wonderful man with character, strength, and virtue and that is refreshing as well. I really can't wait to see how it all pans out and what we find out about each other in the coming days. This could be a beautiful thing. The picture below is my man! Isn't he cute?

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Now, as I finish writing this blog I have to go and get my rear in gear on GRE prep. I can't put it off any longer. Also, I feel my sugar is probably low right now and let me tell you..that is NOT a bad thing. I have been experiencing days and days of taking insulin and not being able to get my sugar down. This is a good thing. I am going to go and test myself and have some lunch finally. I think that morning stroll may have broke the sugar barrier.

Have a great day as I am today and enjoy all of the things that life brings you. To be truly in love with ones such a blessing after such a hard couple of years. Singlehood...SEE YA!


Friday, January 27, 2006


Hello everyone. I am sorry I haven't written for a bit. January has been a trying month for me. 2006 isn't looking all that much better than 2005 but I have my fingers crossed. Overall the main updates have to do with my family in Indiana and my grad school progress. My family has started moving and will be relocating to Bedford, Indiana starting next week. That is a big step for my family as we have lived in Mitchell my whole life. It will be weird to go home and visit and not be in the same town as my Grandfather's grave and my high school and all of the things I am familiar with.

Grad School preparation is going well. I have finally scheduled my GRE for February 17th. For those of who you don't know, that is the Graduate Records Examination. This exam is important to some of the schools I chose and they make a decision based on these scores at times. I am nervous about it but have spent about a year preparing so I am hoping to get a couple more weekends of studying in and go in confident.

I have ordered transcripts, gotten recommendations out, and have almost completed my application packets so things are going smoothly. This coming week I am going to start working on the Fafsa and get that done for financial aid and the rest is going to have to fall into place. I owe Vanguard a little money before they will release my transcripts so that is the next order of business.

This process has required a lot of steps and also a lot of healing in my own life before I could really step out and apply. I have begun seeing my therapist again in the new year and it's going wonderfully. I know that through this process, I will need to be working on my personal growth and strength. I have a lot of things I need to accomplish in order to be a successful and confident therapist.

A few relationships in my life have come full circle and I am working on those. I have a new boy in my life and as of yesterday (Jan 26th) we have decided to be together. That means after 2 grueling years of singlehood, I am finally a girlfriend again. I have resolved in my own mind to do this one completely different. So far, I am doing great but it's only day 2. :)

My health is again a concern but when isn't it? I have started faithfully taking insulin again and it seems it's not the right dosage since I can't keep my sugar at a low enough number. I need to choose a diabetic specialist soon and start a new diet and regime and get serious about saving my own life. I have learned that I need to love myself a bit better through this disease and see if I can manage sugars better.

I am sure there are other things to update but I must get going and start calling around for a doctor that will see a patient without insurance. :(

Have a great weekend everyone and God bless you all!


Monday, January 09, 2006

I'm not telling

Lately I have come to a point where my privacy is of prime importance. I am in a place where my personal life is finally mine. I don't have all of these deep hidden secrets but at the same time, my life is not public property anymore. That feels good to me. I think that is what I needed all along.

So, the new years resolutions are going ok. I am working on about a billion things at once. I am working on my personal health, my grad school goal, my debt, and my friendships. I think that this year is going to be so much better because I have my head on for sure in a lot of aspects.

My day today is going to be spent doing errands and appointments today which is a normal run of the mill monday I guess. I will write tomorrow!

Until then, have a great day


Friday, January 06, 2006

Another day, another goal

Hello everyone and welcome to my blog for the second day running that I have been able to write in it. I have had this blog for some time and I used to just blog to death but I found that I started having an actual life after Adolfo and chose to stop doing so. I am going to be blogging a bit more in it now but only for my own sanity, not to share anything personal and big!

You may be wondering what is going on in my life and I will go ahead and fill you in on the not so personal and not so exciting details. First of all I am still working on Grad School applications and I have been so bad about putting these things off. I have really beat around the bush and it's time to get serious about it in 2006. Today's goal comes from that mega-goal. My dating life is going well. I will not be saying anything about my current relationship on here but that I am enjoying my life and I am doing fine.

My health is not at its best as I have been also putting off weight loss. Not in a huge way like eating everything I want but just not doing all the work that I know will get the job done. Again, it's time to get serious! My friends (as I said yesterday) are all struggling and scattered so I am hoping that in the next month we will see some incline in the news. I am not sure that it is going to happen, but we can always hope and pray.

Today's goal for me is going to be focused on my second major goal of the new year. Getting into Graduate School! I have decided to get all of my envelopes ready today for my applications and make a checklist for each packet therefore creating organization. That doesn't sound like a lot but it's probably an hour task down in the process. Please pray because there are just tons of things that I need to do for Grad School prep. I also need to take the GRE rather soon so please pray for money and time for that. I have applications to fill out, things to write, recommendations to get, fees to pay..etc... and it's killing me to think about everything so one step at a time.

Yesterday my goal was to drink 8 glasses of water and I sure got it done. I wasn't even floating either because I did a lot of stuff yesterday that required hydration. Hurray for me. I am getting closer to being a healthy individual. ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Have a great day ya'll and enjoy your weekend. If I don't get to write on the weekend, I'll update on Monday!

Happy Friday!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

oh my life goes.

Hey everyone. Thanks for stopping in today. It's already the 5th day of the new year and I am overwhelmed with new things and tasks at hand. I haven't had a moment to blog since I was in California last. I did take my trip to Indiana and got to see my family and friends back home. While I was home I got a new tattoo which is on my lower back and is a Mustang Stallion with my grandfathers birth and death dates above and below. It's great and healing pretty well. Here is a photo of it.

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Marcus my trusty tattoo artist is the one who did it and I have some pictures I plan to load onto my web-site from the tattoo and trip in general. Since being back, I haven't really done much but catch up. I feel like my life has been spent in the laundry room. Who knew you needed so many clothes for 12 days? I also have been spending time with my California people (at least the ones that are around) Most of my California friends are not around right now because they are at their respective homes.

My friends are all having their own struggles right now with family illnesses, impending scary moments, and even car accidents and such. I feel like everyone is really struggling right now. Today, I am just struggling to keep my eyes open. I haven't been sleeping very much and it's taking a toll on me.

As resolutions go, I have decided that I am going to do something a little different this year. I have 4 main goals for my 2006. They are the following....

1. Lose Weight
2. Get into Grad School
3. Pay down debts
4. Be a good friend

These goals will be the main focus of my entire year. I have decided to work on these goals by having 1 daily resolution for myself. Today's (January 5th) is to drink at least 8 glasses of water by midnight. I know that doesn't sound especially hard but to be honest, it's a great health goal for me seeing that water is always good for your body and also flushes fat out of your system. One thing at a time this year.

Anyway, I hope all is well on your front and please write or call if we haven't spoken. I am hoping to use some time this weekend to catch up with folks via phone or email so keep those cards and letters coming!